Verlangen - to Want

To want to travel, write and do comedy, making some kind of living doing any combination of the three is my current, hopefully not-that-distant goal. I pine for it, dreaming of a time where I might actually get some sort of currency for any of what I’ve sacrilegiously dubbed my Holy Trinity of, well, stuff. Seeing other cities and places even within my own country is a real buzz, and the thought of being stuck in the same place for years on end is offensively grim. The excitement of exploring somewhere new, meeting and sharing stories with interesting people and simply having no commitments or humdrum crap to deal with for even just a few days is fabulous. So that’s the travel. The writing, well, I’m hardly classically trained, as these pieces show, commas are severely over-used, as are hyphenated words and phrases. But despite the holes that can and probably will be readily picked in my output (textual, not faecal - cocktail sticks work quite well for the latter), I feel the English skills of most native speakers are shite, getting progressively more poo and turdy as years chug by. And that’s four synonyms for excrement in one sentence - you can’t fault such linguistic aptitude! No, this is a terrible advert for my writing. If I’m sounding like a smug prick it’s just I’m too rubbish to make it sound self-deprecating. The point being that with less people being able to express themselves in the written form, the less competition for jobs I’ll have. Yep, that’s what I’m going with. Anyway, the comedy. I’ve perform a mammoth two, that’s right, TWO sets in front of no more than thirty people over the last - has it really been that long? - three months. Not the best strike rate, but I’ve had fun doing it. My reception was surprisingly good and made me want to do it some more. Stylistically, it’s more a case of I find this funny, I think you might too, rather than the smug arrogance of I’m a funny man, listen to me and laugh. Or you’re a cock. Essentially, attempting to be funny makes me laugh, and laughing makes me feel good, and feeling good makes me feel not that bad, so it’s as much a method of staying relatively un-mental as it is a desire to make other people smile. Just a little bit. So, each of the Trinity individually would be a great start, and merging two would be brilliant. Travel writing, comedy writing or performing comedy while travelling - that’s in actual places, not literally while travelling on a plane or in a nightmarish cruise-ship cabaret situation. The realisation of the Trinity would be a monumental and miraculous happening. I’m not interested in being rich, just creative and happy. Subsistence even at the full Trinity level would be incredible and definitely something I’m glad to want to want to do. Good job I do then.